In my inheritance of all the literature that mom had left me, I found one very small book that turned out to be a diary of her spiritual development during the mid 1990's - the same period of time in which my brother had committed suicide. In this diary, mom had documented her communications with the integral entities that helped with Lucky's "afterlife" spiritual development. This chapter presents the compiled messages mom received regarding Lucky's disincarnate soul and his eventual reincarnation. I have also added my own commentary where I considered it appropriate.
June 1995: Lucky Senior left our earth, and because there was so much confusion as to how his passing occurred, I called Bobby to have it checked out. Bobby asked both AnnaBelle and Shen to look into the matter.
By June 18th, with their light of Love and Compassion emanating, Shen and AnnaBelle descended into the darkness and the gloom of the earth bound and emotional states of our universe trying to find Lucky and help him to find peace. And upon looking around, they discovered Lucky in the mire of shame and desperation. He was in a hunched down position, cold, shivering and afraid. When Lucky saw them in such bright light he asked them why their light was so brilliant, and why he was in such darkness. It was at this time that I knew that with these two great entities having found Lucky, he would be able to evolve soul wise.
(To interject); when death occurs, we go into the "earth bound" state because we retain many of the feelings and desires similar to those we have had in our physical life. The earth bound state is also referred to as "hell" because of our ties and our desire to change conditions that we cannot accept. In this earth bound hell, we continue to grasp at things as if we have forgotten that we do not possess a physical body any longer. When we are bound in the "emotional world" we retain a possession of what are called false emotions. These include such things as jealousy, hate, possessiveness, greed, or domination. For Lucky, the most predominant false emotions were helplessness, desperation and shame.
In answer to my question over the confusion as to why suicide, Bobby, Zorenkoff and Spirinoff eventually revealed to me this: Lucky was dealing in a lot of things. He was stealing, doing drugs, breaking and entering, and entertaining drunkenness frequently. He couldn't make an anticipated deal with the stolen guns, and that left him without any money to purchase the bar he was hoping for. He believed that by purchasing the bar, he could "disappear" in the hopes of drawing an honest living from behind the scenes. In the end, he did take his own life.
October 24, 1995: I talked to Lucky through Bobby for the second time, and many questions that I had were answered. Lucky spoke of going to a school in heaven for higher knowledge. He said that he was excited about everything. Tom was helping him to learn as he was a little bit more evolved than Lucky was (interjection: Tom was also known as "Tennessee" and was a young 22 year old companion to Bobby Bond for awhile. He died in a car wreck earlier in the 1990's). I asked Lucky if he had met any of his relatives yet, and he said that he had met his grandpa on his dad's side (Clarence Jackson died in 1963). But Lucky also said that they didn't want him to meet too many of his relatives just yet - on account that to do so would "bog him down" on his learning. The entities wanted Lucky to keep on evolving, first and foremost.
Lucky said that he was sure happy that they got him out of the earth bound and emotional state. He said that it was really all dark and gray and dreary there. He also said that Kundie had told him that I did go with Jesus one time, to help others "cross the river" (from the lower vibrations; earth bound, emotional, to the higher ones).
Lucky said that he was helping on Christmas Island, and that Kundie told him I help there too. I mentioned that maybe after Christmas and Easter, we would invite Lucky to Mama Chi Chi's and my planet, for a Hawaiian celebration. I told him to speak to Mama Chi Chi about it. While Lucky was in the garden of souls (Florida), he had seen my guardian angel, and he had seen me there three times as well. He added that Kundie is wonderful as are all the entities, and that they are all so nice in helping him to evolve.
As the conversation continued, I asked Lucky if he could give me a message for his oldest boy (also named Lucky). he told me to tell him that he was in the arms of God - but then said that I probably better say "in the arms of Jesus" instead, and that he was working with Jesus and hopes to be working with Jesus permanently. Lucky also told me to tell "Little Lucky" that this Sunday, he would meet a 15 year old boy named Joseph who would be with him to help through his hardship (the loss of his dad).
Lucky said that "you have a way of attracting highly evolved entities, and that everyone here loves you." I told him that you are called "the golden boy" there. he responded with, "Oh. That's who they're talking about." I also told him that his youngest son, J.D., is doing well in bowling. He said he knows - the entities keep him informed. Lucky also told me that his dad worries about him and to be sure for me to tell him that Lucky is doing just fine.
Towards the end of our conversation, Lucky told me that he feels so sad for Byron for wasting so much time being miserable (this had to be in reference to the long healing process Byron was enduring after his last divorce).
December 27, 1995: In a phone conversation (through Bobby), I had a talk with Mama Chi Chi. She told me that I had received a blessing, and I expected that this was in reference to my opportunities to talk to Lucky. But also, for Lucky's sake, I could tell that he was evolving and adapting quite well to being "in heaven". To my surprise, she acknowledged that while this was true, she was actually referring to the fact that I had been inducted into the "Heavenly Order of Christmas Island Mothers". She told me that there were only five such mothers. In the event, I was given a blue robe and a halo. During the conversation, I asked Mama if it was okay to give Lucky a place on the island (Fire Island), but she said, "Not at this time - because Lucky had to find 'his place', first".
In my following conversation with Lucky, he told me that he enjoyed the Christmas on Christmas Island and liked being with the kids. Lucky was shocked to see Shawn (Byron's oldest boy) - he thought that Shawn had met with an accident to be there. But there were others there that reassured him that Shawn was still in the physical and that I had "picked him up" to bring him to the celebration (during soul flights).
I asked Lucky who was with him at his time of passing and he told me that Spirinoff, Zorenkoff and AnnaBelle were with him, but that they had found him when he realized that he wasn't in the garage anymore, but in a rather scarey place instead. Lucky was trying to figure out why I had become his mother with all of the knowledge that I have, but he also said that he loved me and that he was going to dance with me at the Hawaiian party coming up.
Lucky asked me if I had said anything to Rose (his grandmother on his father's side), and I told him, yes! - I had told her of talking with Lucky, about the "tunnel of light" and the garden. I also have told her about Clarence Jackson, and how he goes to the garden on occasions. Lucky said that he thought that he would stay with her and be a comfort when she dies.
July 1996: Jacob and Bobby shared a secret with me regarding Lucky. In a previous visit to Lincoln by Bobby (1993), he spoke of a cosmic angel being with him. When Lucky goes to visit Bobby, I am told that he (Lucky) is just mesmerized by the angel. The angel is bright and beautiful.
November 26, 1996: In a reading by phone, Jacob and Lucky both spoke with me. It was Shen, this time, that had brought Lucky through to say, "hello" to me. Lucky said that he was real pleased with Clarence (his dad) and that Clarence was doing real well (I presume this to be in the heavenly class room) He also said that he enjoys the vibration in our house, and that it was a very harmonious one. It seems that Kundie has taken a close and personal interest in Lucky - he has been giving Lucky the chance to experience the joys of having this special attention. During this phone conversation, Lucky was very excited, and he told me that this was because Kundie had given him the privilege to light the Christmas tree on Christmas Island. The tree would be lit on Friday November 29th, 1996.
Shen said that Lucky and Tom were doing real well together pretty much on everything, and that they do everything that the masters ask of them so willingly.
January 22, 1998: Lucky's blessing of visiting heaven for these last few years is about to change. He has to begin paying his debts. Because Lucky ended his life on this world, he has to take another body. As he had committed a crime by breaking one of God's laws when he ended his own life, he would have to reincarnate. Lucky said that, 'your Bobby', God, Jacob and others would be with him to find a new embryo. Lucky also said that he had asked God to let him remember all of the spiritual knowledge that he has learned. He also hopes to find a family like Bobby Bond's. He went on to say that he was saddened that he had to be reborn again, but they gave him an understanding that he stayed in heaven this long and can't stay any longer. Lucky told me that he loved me and I wished him well in his new body and life on earth.
Before the end of the phone call, Jacob came back on to announce that Lucky would be reborn to a family in England and that the family would be picked this weekend (Jan 23-24th, 1998).
March 11, 1998: Jacob spoke with me today on the phone through Bobby at around 1:00 p.m.. He told me that Lucky's new mother's name would be Thelma W. She is a good spiritualist, she heals, and she gives massages. Lucky's birth is to take place either the last of June or the first of July 1998. I was also told that Thelma would be found on Easter Island wearing a pale green dress and carrying three roses, so I would recognize her. Jacob also told me that I could speak with Thelma, if I desired, through Bobby.
April 6, 1998: Kundie was pleased of Lucky's new mother and said that he would be born June 3, 1998 - and that if I wanted to visit with Thelma W., to do it in May instead of June as originally planned. Kundie said to take candles along on the trip to keep the vibration high.
May 13, 1998: My meeting with Thelma W: Thelma said that they named their new baby Joshua, and that he would be born June 1st, 1998 at her home with the help of a mid wife. She said that Joshua was kicking up a storm, and she also told me that he would have a wonderful life. I told her that I was sure that he would, because Lucky/Joshua got his wish of being born into a spiritual family.
Thelma told me that she was very busy. She has a church named, "Temple of Peace" and that there were 600 members, with one hundred of those in the choir. They have a service every day of the week. They also have healings and meditations. The healings are done in the "Garden of Healing" with the faith of Jesus. Jesus is the master healer and the people's guides stand in the background protecting.
She lives in Sussex which is close to Hampton. She told me that one day, she would come to get me and take me to her church for services and healing classes. Thelma also told me that she had met me once before in the "Heaven's Garden" and she called me "Blue Angel". That's when she said that the title was not "just" given to me, but that I deserved it. She went on to say that Kundie helps me a lot, and that he was wonderful, to which, I agreed.
June 3, 1998: First, came the news about Joshua's birth at 3:42 a.m., 6/3/98. this is Lucky's reincarnation. Every one of his new family are very happy and excited about his birth. Matzuki said that he was a beautiful baby. Thelma's church is having a celebration pot luck lunch in his honor. Jacob said that he would take me there this Sunday (6/7/98) for their church meeting, healing and celebration. Shen will also come. Jacob suggested that I get some peppermint oil and put some of this on my third eye area before going to bed, because this will help in the soul flight.